Thank you so much! Yes I had everything tested, and it's not physical. Currently I'm not in therapy but have been before. It was helpful, but not curing. i might gomback to therapy. I just feel like I don't want to always think about myself, and always monitor myself how am I doing, but it has sort of become a bad habit now. It's hard to get my mind to concentrate on different things - perhaps positive thoughts. I really wanna get a job and I hope I'm going to be able to do so. i just reallly want to prove myself and everybody else around me, that I am capable to live a normal life. It has just been so hard lately. Thanks for the support!