I feel ya, Nacho. I am at a loss for words right now...so i will do the best i can...

knowing that stupid depression lurks around the corner makes the "even-keel" times feel less enjoyable. The up times are annoying (though they feel damn good, creative and productive) because i can tell i get on peoples nerves! I dont like that feeling either. The worst part is being out of control of it all. I don't mean to sound victimish, but please, i feel like i am on a train ride that i didn't ask for and i don't think the conductor knows i get motion sick!!! so basically, i get ya, you are not alone. I guess we just have to feel fortunate to have our friends here at PC that can make us feel more like we are not alone in the world, right?