I can't do this right now. I just CANT. I dont want to hurt anyone but I can't seem to win. Changing my personality isn't working to make it easier for people in real life and I can't FUNCTION. I'm not SUPPOSED to feel this awful. I'm not ALLOWED to feel this upset and guilty and be this worried about my roomate. I CANT cry. I CANT ask for help. I WANT to be OVER this already. I NEED to feel better. I DONT WANT to be alone anymore. I WANT to feel better about myself. I just CANT.

I JUST WANT TO QUIT.



Why do all the stresses have to pile up on top of each other? Why doesn't anyone understand? Why can't I feel better? Why does life suck so bloody much? Why am I so frustrated with this, when I'm not allowed to be mad?

Can't be mad can't be sad can't be myself can't be a good person can't do anything right can't be myself. I don't know who that is.