Update: went to group for the first time since turning in the blades. My case manager made it a special point to check and see how I was doing today. I know all therapists at group are now aware of what went on, but only one who used to be my case manager as well as my pdoc has mentioned it and told me they were happy that I had done so well. I don't know how I'll feel about it the first time a crisis hits, but for now, i's a relief to not have them around me, after the initial fear.