I have been bipolar 1 with rapid cycling for several years and have tried just about every treatment. On Sunday I was manic and took some sleeping pills to calm me down and it worked but now I'm falling into the depressive side. I guess the only thing that is consistant is that it will happen. I have an appt with my pdoc on Thurs so I just have to hold on until then. Just want this to end so I can live a normal life where I can not worry about what cycle I'll be on or if I will be able to control myself. I hate being afraid of myself.