And I'm not surprised anymore when this stuff happens. I was at first because it never used to. I used to drink and have fun and nothing bad ever happened but apparently that's changed. I was wondering if anyone else had similar problems or any solutions. I'm at a loss. It's like I can't be around people at all anymore because I either feel the need to self medicate with alcohol and then I have these freak outs or I'm too freaked out in the first place to even force myself to walk out the door. I feel like I'm ruining my life.