I felt the same way, themonster7. I still do, from time to time. You're not dumb. Sometimes you feel depressed, but because you aren't so low you can't get out of bed, you feel like it's your fault you feel that way, and you blame yourself. You can't have depression because you're functional. At least, that's how I would feel. But it's still depression all the same. That's one of the worst parts of it, in my opinion.