{{{{{{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Thank you so much for understanding and supporting me in my efforts in asking for what I need!! You are so right! Those words, spoken or written send me on one of those panic attacks you speak of. I get flashbacks of my mom laying in bed, slowly trying to raise her hand to her head in order to pull her hair in frustration and desperation! She couldn't even open her eyes to look at me and try to communicate that way!

I guess the fact that at my mom's death, I completely lost myself and my sanity doesn't matter much to some people here. I can only hope they never experience anything like I did.

Jan, thanks again so much!