I forgot to mention but I'm also starting to learn what my triggers are. I had just gotten back from a family trip to the house I was abused at (had to sleep in the same bed for a few days and that was rough) so that explains why I've been so on edge. I didn't even realize it till he said it. I also just can't talk about abuse, rape, etc right now even if it doesn't relate to me. I can't be in sexual situations (much as I feel the need for sexual validation) and I can't be around guys much. I find it triggering too when people try to touch me when I tell them not to or when people tell me what to do or invalidate my experiences. I'm nervous about the whole sobriety thing but I'd rather be sober than repeat what I've been doing. Any tips on getting over the anxiety while sober? It's very hard for me right now especially because I'm a college kid and people are always shoving free drinks in my face.