Thanks Red,

This is exactly why I have always checked and double checked any meds and contraindications that he gives me because I don't trust his judgement. Right now, for me he is just a means to an end ( getting the psych consult ) and so I will play along until the next consult.
I understand he wants to get the lithium levels correct to see the results first, that's fine, but I am holding absolutely no weight in anything else he has said .... in fact ... maybe the very very fact that I am not sat crying in a corner right now, shows the lithium is helping afterall !

If he won't give me the referral next month ( thou I believe he will because he said he didnt want to mess with my effexor etc and we should leave that to psych services ) I will be forced to get a second opinion which won't be easy because I live in rural Ireland where Dr's are few and far between.

I don't 'want' something to be wrong with me. I just want there to be nothing wrong with me which clearly there is looking at my History ...

big breath in ..... and .... relax