Hello and welcome to pc. My name is Wally and I have been diagnosed with manic-depression since 1997. I can't speak for anyone but myself, but perhaps I can shed some light and put some perspective on your situation. Knowing that you love your husband and child(ren) very much, I would advise you to see a psychiatrist and ask your husband to come along as well. It's that simple. Again, welcome to pc come back soon and try to relax knowing that you are not alone in this, because we at pc share many similiarities and welcome You with open arms. Best wishes. Wally