So i really don't know where to begin... I haven't been diagnosed w/bipolar, however so many of my friends think that i suffer from it. Anyways, Since like high school, i have dealt with some pretty extreme mood swings, and it seems like recently, they've been getting worse... And i feel like (currently) i am going crazy or something. I also feel weird and like i really just dont belong in this world, cuz i experience emotions that just don't seem to be able to logically go together, yet i still experience them... by this i mean that for instance yesterday, i literally felt extremely depressed AND extremely happy at the same time... part of me says that shouldn't be possible, but it really did happen... and there's been quite a few times recently that i've felt like that and i feel alone. i guess my emotions just confuse me so much.. Any advice, support, etc is most welcome. Also, i am currently on an antidepressant which admitedly i really have not been very good about taking like im supposed to. I've been threatened to have my meds taken away from me which is most upsetting to me.... I frequently ask one of my friends things like if he'd miss me if i died, why he was my friend, what woudl happen if i were to jump out of my window, what he thought about me shaving half my hair off and dying and mohawking the other half....etc..... any help is apreciated. Do any of you feel like that sometiems???