And this is an experience that is seriously testing my skills and patience.

I feel badly because my fiancée is femme and I know would relish this experience, but it am disgusted by it. I can't stand to look in the mirror anymore because I look so feminine now. I look and see a stranger. And it is causing me to become increasingly depressed and irritable. My fiancée and I agreed that this will be the only time that I get pregnant, because I don't think I could handle this all over again.

And I still have 8ish weeks left before our son arrives.

Has anyone else ever been in this position?