Ok so I was orignally DXed with Bipolar and subsequently was DXed with BPD and that particular doctor stated i'm probalby both.
Well of late I've been observing my patterns. Indeed I feel that I do have a numberof BPD traits but one thing makes me think its quite possibly more BP than BPD.
Rapid mood changes seem to be what most people here experience much of the time and for me, I don't see that about me. I attribute any sudden changes of mood to my emotional intensity. If something makes me angry, happy, sad, I just happen to experience it more strongly but although that is a BPD trait it's not the same moodiness that I hear from people here. I mean my mood changed 99.9% of the time are explainable by an event or trigger.
In a more general sense my cycles as I've noticed have a longer term to them, pointing more to BP than BPD. I will be manic for a period of days up to weeks and although I might have a short lived mood change at times, it's more rare or as above it can be attributed to something specific happening.
In all of this, I guess it really doesn't matter. I am me, this is how I am and in any case I am learning to see the moods, the changes and behaviors and learning to accomodate these things.
Thanks for listening. Just thought I'd update since I've been away for a bit.
~S4
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