Yes, you could call me high functioning. I do hold down a full time job that forunately doesn't take a lot of effort. However, i am suicidal most days. I just can't come up with a sure way at this point and I don't want to try and fail. I put on a happy face when neccessary and fall apart when I get home. The doctor has made another med change so I have hope again that this one may work. Meanwhile I have quiet a stockpile of meds to choose from. You are right about the fact that the one's who have never had it can possibly understand how bad it gets.

I hope you feel better soon, too.