hi
it is said life and happiness is about choices we make. I have been there,felt that. I was married for 4 years, had 2 kids ,when I felt friendly attraction to a man other then my H,. True, my marriage was not easy ,I did feel lonely and criticized most of time,not loved,but what attracted me was this man's availability,attention to me.In spite of his multiple attempts to get close to me I could not allow that:we both had family/kids,we knew each others family,and it was wrong, He got divorced eventually,but I could not betray my family. The hardest point was, when I found myself wishing to have His kid,for the first time in my life (I love/adore my kids,but I have never been given option : I want to have kids now or later?,that was something I was supposed to do,like many other things in my marriage) That is when I realized that I really love him.My husband was and is the only man in my life.I had obligations to him and my family,no matter how much I wanted to be with other person.Would I be happy if I left my husband for him? I think guilt would have override the rest of emotions. I made my choice. I pretended not to have any feelings for him,I know I hurt him,we never touched each other, we never spend time alone without colleagues around,...It took me 7 years to get over the fact that i wanted to share my mundane with him .Having H distancing me and not eager to share did not help,so I am lonely,still craving for touch ,acceptance...despite been married for 16 years.That was hard decision,but after all these years and pain and loneliness I still think I made a right decision not to allow myself to get sucked in sharing with man other then H.
So ,to make it short,If you want to keep your wife whom you claim you love,be loyal to her,let her love save you,talk to her.I am sure she will be happy to work on happiness
Good luck,it is not easy,but
Choices we make built our future
regards
wife22