She didn't call & say the noon appt opened up tomorrow
I'm so paranoid - like she wants to see how bad I can get...
Rationally it makes no sense obviously I'm not her only client.
But waiting until Monday - maybe I'll be better by then & won't need meds.
I asked a gf today about the local adult behavioral health unit - her mom works there.
She tried to help but said she was only hospitalized once for an ED and escaped, other than that she didn't know much about it. I will do everything possible to avoid that.

But if pdoc sees no urgency, maybe I will calm down and be ok come Monday. Certainly would save a $400 visit. I really need to find one who takes my insurance.

I'm mostly honest with pdoc, I have admitted my road rage, pulling my hair out, etc... But everything is too on the brink right now. I need to be able to work. And sleep. And not scream.