Hello Skittles. I feel if you think about the positive attitude that you have about feeling accomplished if you finish your job, will be very important to you when you feel that you did a very mature thing and you actually did the right thing. WE all learn very meaningful lessons on life and many times as said above it it not really all the big overwhelming things that always matter but the pride and joy and comfort that comes from within that really counts at times. Take care I hope the best for you Skittles hang in there you can do it. Sincerely Soidhonia