It was really weird

I feel like i'm just spinning in circles and going no wheres with this. She keeps asking me what i think will benefit me with coming to see her this semester, and what i want to work on ..... i got nothing Its like i can't even think ... I can't pinpoint WHY i'm upset, i'm just complaining and this is pointless.

She brought up SI again .... I'm so ashamed. I can't even talk about it without turning bright red. But i guess i still can't even talk about much anyways.
I wish i knew where this was going .... or at least what the heck is wrong with me