<font color="purple"> ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))) </font>

YES.... it does get better in TINE (over time).

I lost my only daughter 10 years ago and it still hurts at times, but over all I am doing better and coping with life without her. I would say that it took about 4 years after her death that myself and the entire family (husband & 2 sons) started to function again, even though my oldest still has some left over ANGER in him that comes out from time to time.

As far as not feeling as though you can let it out - I want to share a few of things that worked for ME, in releasing my inner wounds / anger:

1.) Doing something physical as I thought about my daughter or how I was feeling inside helps... for the stuck feelings (good or bad) is energy, therefore, one needs to get physical to move it, and then eventually release it.
.... even walking will help.

2.) Taking a Pillow and Tennis Racket and then getting down on your knees - start to hit the pillow with the racket (from over your head to down on the pillow), as you start to hit harder start to yell and scream about everything you are feeling inside..... say whatever you need, even if it is not usual you or how you would talk or vent.
.... the point here is to VENT!! VENT!! VENT!! - you will feel drained after wards, but better later on that day, maybe even right away.

3.) Take a car ride to the middle of no where, with windows up and music blaring - SCREAM your heart out and let the tears flow.

4.) Exercise or Hitting / Kicking a Punching Bag is GREAT!!

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Hope this HELPS - if but a little..... tomorrow will be brighter.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( )))