Sweety, I am married with 3 smart, wonderful children (teens), a beautiful house, and an adorable puppy. I'm here because I feel like you, for the last couple of years. I finally started to cry again, so that's a start. This is gonna sound cliche, but find a beginner yoga class near you. DO NOT get tapes. Take a deep breath and go into the studio. If you don't like that class, go to a different one/studio. But most people who go to class don't give a rat's fart about what you're doing, they worry about them (and trust me, quite a few give their own farts). The exercise plus breathing and mindfulness can do wonders.