There are some of us that just can't make it with out meds. Our brains are just miss firing. Whether it's with OCD, depression, bipolar or many other mental health issues some of us will always need medication to stay on track. I gave up hope many years ago of being able to do it without meds. Acceptance, that is what I have found that helps.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha