Hey, I'm so thankful I found this site. I don't have anyone to talk to in my life right now. I've been battling depression for years and probably need to change meds as I'm down in the hole again. My work is suffering and I'm in danger of losing my job and I feel completely incapable of dealing with life. My marriage of 25 years is in the crapper because I have a husband who is a good guy but totally clueless and wrapped up in himself. I have two wonderful kids 23 & 12 -- with my youngest daughter at home. I feel really guilty about what a drag I am with her and she's entering adolescence and really needs me to have my s**t together. I started counseling then changed it to marriage counseling and think i'm going to just go back to one on one, but I still feel like I'm sinking. I do know that I'm calling my doc tomorrow to see about changing my meds, but that takes a while to kick in. At least with this site I feel a little hopeful. Today is the first day I've ever considered admitting myself to the hospital, but I don't know what that would invlove. Oh well, I'll be posting and reading more. Thanks for letting me vent.