I have my sleep schedule kinda screwed up. I just started a new job and so I need to be rested, but when I lay down to sleep my mind just races. When I do sleep usually around 2 am, I have nightmares. I don't remember them when I wake up, I just know they were bad cause my heart is racing and I feel panicked. I have been without a job for over a year so when I couldn't sleep I just read a book till I fell asleep. Now I feel pressured to sleep at a certain time and my mind and body are revolting. The not sleeping and the nightmares are really making the depression worse. I have run this cycle before, and I don't like where it leads...usually to me crying for it all to end...with suicidal idealizations. I am not there yet, but hopelessness is creeping in and I feel helpless against it.