Wow, Crimson, I need to thank YOU for being so brave and posting your story here. I can tell that you're such a kind person, and I truly wish that I could take all your pain away, and help you realize that you are never alone. I understand your situation, and I honor your decision to not worry your mother because of your health - that decision shows that you have a loving, caring heart. I really hope that you'll be able to open up to me, or someone else one day, and realize that I'm not going anywhere. I am so sorry that you have had to deal with so much pain and trauma as well, but you give me hope, because after all of those traumatizing experiences, you remain kind and caring, and offer your friendship to those who deserve it. Although I feel like I could type long novels to you, (I'm so eager for us to get to know each other), I would like to leave on one note. One day, I was browsing through inspirational quotes online, and reading your message made me think of this one quote... I hope you like it "In life, you never lose friends. You just find out who the real ones are."