For some reason I have reached a point in my life,that I feel the need to hang on this persons view of me ? I need to find myself. I have been very physically ill and I feel like he is the only one I have but I do not have him and he is making things worse and so am I by even giving a damn! he called me a drug addict because of prescribed meds! Why did all the people I had loving relationships with die! I love and adore my babies but I cannot depend on them I just lay in bed more than half the time hurting and crying, he is here for monetary support for family at this time and no more I need to keep my distance and realize he has his own problems, I need to go out more it is hard! I am suprised I have not started drinking again! But I knowhow much further down I would go!