Thanks, guys. (the Thanks button wasn't enough )

I really don't think there's a problem with my therapist, but more CBT. I hate that the therapy is 20 sessions, and that's it. 6/20, and I'm already going whacko. >.< I don't see this helping me, but doing more damage, and then when I'm finished with the therapy, I'll be far, far more vulnerable than before I started! Hopefully I'm wrong, but that's how it feels, ATM. Maybe I'm just struggling with OCD, as what happens anyway, and I'm aiming that insecurity and frustration at the therapy.

I'll tell my therapist I got urges again, and that they were really bad, and that I was getting upset, and blah blah blah, but chances are, she'll react all blasé and carry on pushing me. I don't want to destroy 4 long, hard years of freedom from that crap, so for her to push me to the point I'd go screwy and, ... re, ... re-something, ... whatever that word is. My therapist seems to really know her stuff, and she does challenge me, which is good, but sometimes I think she doesn't realise where my line is, even though I tell her; I have this problem with a lot of people, and it does my head in, ... I've been down this road many times over the years, I've gone up and down more times than, ... an up-and-down thingy, ... so when I tell people my lines, and what screws me over, I truly mean it, but it's like they're thinking "Yeah, he knows jack-crap" or at least, that's the feeling/impression I get, from the way I see them act/talk; maybe all of this is in my head.