Depression and anxiety are consuming me. I feel terrible. I feel like I'm dying. I'm not being dramatic, that's how I feel, mentally. I don't know.Maybe it's the comedown. I snorted bupropion earlier. Or maybe because I've been smoking cigarettes lately. I just wanted relief. I've tried three antidepressants; bupropion, citalopram and mirtazapine. None of them have worked. The only things I want are stims and benzos. I don't think the ADs work well for me. How do I relieve my depression now? Or reduce it? It feels unbearable and I feel like dying tonight.