Hey Stuck, me too about the pressure to go to sleep. I'm a night owl and used to have a job where I needed to get in at 8a, stand in a circle with the rest of the company, and be lucid enough to talk about that day's plan.

Mondays were the worst, because I'd feel the revolt you're talking about all of Sunday evening. And I would cry every morning before going to work.

My therapist told me to recite to myself before bed. He told me to say "catastrophization" over and over. First, the word is darn boring and it's like counting sheep. But what he was really trying to do was tell me that the worst thing I can think of will not happen. It just won't.

For me, it worked for the nightmares. What worked for the sleeping part? Telling myself, "I'll deal with whatever happens in the morning." I'm not saying these will be a perfect solution for you --- I'm just saying that you have some control over your situation and there's real hope that it will get better.