so sorry... feeling extremely bad today... i feel that even when it is the last thing that i want to do, i hurt other people.

When T talked to be about binging yesterday, I realized if I didn't binge I simply wouldn't be here/anywhere anymore. Anger can't feel it. Fear I feel constantly.
Doesn't T understand that fear is behind everything? That "speechless terror" is what I always feel at some level all the time?
Bimging full time now.