Thanks for the hugs, wow, that makes me feel better. I have always tried to consider how my depression affects others, interesting enough my husband doesn't think so. It is a a constant battle of trying sooo hard to be there for each other and not understanding the other one. I do go to therapy, have been for 12 years, and unfortunately I have gotten little from it. My current therapists says that is because I am fighting the system. Anyway that is a post for the therapy board. We went to marriage counseling 4 times and he walked out the last time. I think he felt threatened since he couldn't control the therapist. We are waiting th see another one. The pain all this causes is so excrusheating (sp?).