So, I'm coming down off this latest down-the-rabbit-hole experience, and as usual my memories of it are already fading. But one night at the peak of the mania, I was laying in bed at 4 AM wide awake, restless and agitated as hell, and all of a sudden I was seeing shadows on the wall morphing into all sorts of grotesque shapes that scared the $#!+ out of me.

There was nothing that could have made shadows. There are no trees on that side of the house, no moonlight, no nightlights, and the room is pitch black. But either my imagination was going crazy or I was hallucinating, and all I could do was keep telling myself that I wasn't seeing what I was seeing. The only other times I've done that were when I had a high fever, but I haven't been sick (well, not physically).

Then next day, I kept refusing to call my pdoc because I just KNEW he was going to put me in the hospital. I have no idea why, I guess it was just a little paranoia talking. And for some reason, I left that out when I did talk to him.

So what do you all think of this? I've never done this before during a manic episode that I can remember.