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I think it is most definetly my meds off. I'm coming off effoxor (just went down to 1/2 of a 37.5 today), starting up on lamotrigine (just went up yesterday).
And yes, it was a change with him. We were supposed to take off Friday to spend time together since he's been so stressed for so long, but he has to work (whereas I busted my hump at work today to take off).
I think it's endlessly difficult to distinguish what is medication, what is episodic illness, and what is (sometimes no less difficult to deal with than the rest) relationships.
Sometimes it's just not possible to tease it all out, sometimes it's a combination of all of these things, but I think the one advantage of dealing with some things at least *as if* they weren't the illness, is that we have more control this way, and it can help in ways that medication can't.
In other words, trying to continue addressing your disappointment and hurt with him, given the circumstances you describe, might be at least as helpful if not more so than addressing this as part of illness.
I hope this makes sense --I don't mean to minimize the role illness plays, only to maximize the control over these things we can have, if we put illness concerns aside, and address the person, the relationship involved. It's more complicated, in a way, maybe more painful, but could end up paying big dividends in the end. I hope you feel better soon.
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