Don't want to say anything right now, to put it nicely I'm in an enduced "altered state of conciousness" due to some time spent with friends at a bar tonight. Bah humbug I am NOT very smart. Maybe if I abuse myself enough I'll snap out of this and stop acting like an idiot.

For the record, people are telling me to stop taking my roomate's stay in hospital so personally and to stop worrying and acting emotional. Everything else is the same darn track running in my head telling me the same things over and over again.

To quote my one T - "What's the WORST thing that could happen if you let yourself cry, let yourself feel your pain?" ... That it wouldn't end, that I'd be weak and miserable and wouldn't feel better again - Ever.