"want to have friends"? correct your thinking. who wants to be friends with someone who doesn't have any? Yes, I know it's stigmatising but don't try to be someone you're not, you can easily be "outed" (like homosexuality) and it won't do you any good. Accepting is the best way forward, that way you turn a "problem" that you have into something you feel proud about, and no one can judge you on it (well if they do, that's their problem, not yours).