Thanks for your reply. I have a psychiatrist that I see, but have not seen a therapist yet. It's strange how you mentioned the thing about suicide. My step brother commited suicide 6 years ago. The feeling of losing him was nothing compared to losing my brother-in-law. I was angry at my step brother for abandoning us and for hurting so many people. I soon realized how he felt, because I myself attempted suicide and would have left behind two children. How selfish would that have been? I checked myself into a Therapy Center. (3rd time being in one.) I guess now I just feel blank. I have no clue what the next step to take is. I know all I have to do is pick up the phone to make an appointment, but at the end of everyday it's just another thing on my list of things left undone.