Sorry you are facing the "dopey fog" of the pharmaceuticals. Sometimes they really help and don't leave you feeling like you can barely swim through the fog. I'm sorry it's not working out that way for you. I hope it gets better because sometimes the symptoms fade. I hope that is the case for you.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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