Thank you for your responses. That is one of the things that happened in my case, a therapist describing their feelings for me and I did leave. But it was, as I wrote, so painful that it nearly destroyed me. The back and forth of the therapist and how they acted with me-one day loving, the next day distant and cold.

One of the things that I have been struggling with is a sense of failure. I feel like I should have been able to work through my feelings and I just wasn't able to. I battle with the feeling that other people would have managed better than I. I feel like a loser.