Hi Daisy,

I agree with Pat. It sounds like you have depression and you should get help as soon as possible because if you don't, it will continue to get worse.
I have suffered with severe depression for 38 years and am on two different anti-depressants.
It may take a while to figure out which works the best for you, but when you do, it's like a lifting from ones shoulders.
I wish you all the best.
Hugs,
Linda