Hang in there. I'm bipolar 1, too, and know how hard it is some days waiting for the pdoc appointment. I think that we all want to have a normal life, whatever that is. ;-)
Actually, by now, you have probably already seen your pdoc. Don''t know how we missed your message so long. Sorry for that. PM me and let me know how it went.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha