You answered your own question when you wrote this paragraph:

What makes me feel the most comfortable is if I could find something less intimidating and stressful where I live now, with the help of my disability/employment organizations, and once I have more experience and confidence, work towards better jobs like the one I am talking about.

I spent a year doing anatomy and physiology I and II and other prerequisites, worked my ***** off and got into a nursing program...then 6 weeks later after a meltdown I quit the program. My biggest focus was fitting in (I work in a hospital and have LOTS of friends who are nurses) and making lots and lots of money to support my family. This was not right for me. I'm struggling because I have borderline personality and really have no idea what I like or don't but at this point I just need a full-time job so I am focusing on working full-time at something that I could actually do for the long haul. I think if you start small and work your way up until you find your comfort zone....you'll be cool.

I recently read a quote that said something to the effect of: The biggest prison we make for ourselves is worrying about what others think of us. So true!