I've been recovering from yet another major depressive episode. I've been going to group therapy in a php program twice a week and to a private therp on Thursdays. Thought my depression was at bay and that I was coping better than I had in years. Then one extremely small trigger started to depress me Wednesday night and here it is Saturday morning and I'm feeling worse.

Part of the depression was assuming I had progressed farther than maybe I actually had after I figured that I was still unable to be comfortable around a lot of people. Also a personal crisis with a friend last week, was relieved when we decided to have limited contact. I've been staying active like I had been trained to do, until Wednesday and Thursday, which I couldn't find the motivation to do anything.

I'm trying to get enough motivation to actually pay my bills today. Thought about a movie afterward to try to 'take care' of myself. But it all seems like a struggle right now. Just very frustrating. Nothing is going wrong now, everything is fine, so I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Not sure by taking the steps I've been trained to do will help. But I guess I'll try to do something.

Thanks for letting me speak.