Your former T doesn't sound very "endearing" to me. Glad he is a former. I know the lack of sleep can also make your feelings more intense so I hope you'll sleep tonight. I often have to hold my tongue & "sleep on it" when I'm down & ready to lash out at someone (usually my husband) or if I start a crying jag. Best to take my meds & knock myself out. I usually do feel better in the morning & the intense feelings subside.--Suzy