Every time I think I hit a point where the depression will break and I can come up for air, I feel like I trip and fall on something else. I'm on a fixed income, and my wife is not making too much money (minimum wage with few hours a week). Every month we hope we can do a bit better than the previous month in terms of money, but something else unexpected comes up each time. It really effects my mood because we can't afford to go out even to free events because gas costs too much. I have to "call out" of volunteering this month because we just don't have the cash for all that extra gas. It's the only thing that gets me out of the house and distracted. We barely have enough money to get food this month... ugh.
My head's also been in a crappy space and I'm having trouble stepping out of it. I am supposed to check in with my T on Tuesday (she works Tu-Sa), but I don't know if I really want to be honest again (sent her some stuff to read on Friday). I'm just so tired of this cycle of fighting the depression and struggling to find anything positive in life. I'm all excited that my mom's negative energy is out of the house for the weekend, but my wife is just as cranky as my mom (noticing that the energy in the house is still just as negative even with m gone)...
I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm taxing my T with my constant neediness. I just want it all gone.