For some of us, meds work and keep us in the realm of sanity. Unfortunately, changes in meds sometime reduce us to crippling depths or to "a normal" state.
I'm so sorry that your change in meds has costs you so dearly. Hopefully, your doctor will soon get you back to the stability you need to survive.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha