I'm feeling bored. No friends are around today. The friend that usually does things with me is babysitting his mother today. Other friends I've tried calling are just not around. I could take myself out to eat I suppose, but that won't pass that much time. I could blog but I don't know what to blog about. I've been blogging so much lately that i've been going through the "old stuff" pretty well and I don't have anything new to post about. My blog is only about bipolar, you see.... I see my pdoc on Tuesday. Woot. Nothing to tell her either, I don't think. The intrusive thoughts have gone away. Just some anxiety off and on. I've tried to resist the ativan and alcohol. Sometimes yes sometimes no. Never together. One kids is at my ex's, one is about to be dropped off there and one is at a friend's house.