Yes I have considered the source.
My libido has been running significantly higher. According to my OB there's no medical reason for it. Most women my age has problems w/ it going in the opposite direction. My Pdoc said it isn't related to any med.

I have been working on PTSD issues & some relates to csa. I have come to realize that what I was taught @ home was so very wrong. That having sexual feelings ARE ok & even good. That masturbating is normal & my over all feelings concerning sex have changed which has freed me a great deal. My H has been hoping for this for yrs bec my thinking has been warped. We have explored a great deal & he's been open to it. Now what I ask for frightens him. He thinks it can be triggering. But only I can make that decision if it's triggering & trying it is the only way I'll know. When I see something in porn I wanto try & envision it w/ my H I see that as something positive bec I wanto do it w/ him. It doesn't scare me like some stuff id call iffy for triggering.