i dont want to see a psychiatrist anymore...

but i need my disability

but
my life right now is spent waiting waiting waiting to lower a med dose or let him to get me off it. what do i do with my life for the rest of my life? have it pass me by wiating for med changes? and even if i asked someone that they tell me to goto school or get a job but if there are so many alt routes in life why cant i take them? and what are these alt routes?

if i dont goto school or dont get a job - then no one has anything to say to me? why?