Many times I have read entries about people's beliefs that bipolar somehow makes us better in some way than people without it. Frequent ones are the presence of creativity and intelligence. We are not better than others without bipolar. Sometimes it seems like, to me, that the writers are either (hypo)manic or have a great need to justify themselves. As I read these entries I think about the times when I am depressed and can't concentrate, have no energy to "do" life, feel dull mentally and have no desire to do things I usually enjoy. Mania is no better. Yes, I do more things but I usually go from one thing to the next without finishing any of them. My thinking is disturbed as my mind rushes from one topic to another, losing track of what I just thought. My ability to make decisions is impaired as I buy a dozen v-neck long sleeve shirts at $25 each in different colors and think it is a good idea.
No, I don't think bipolar makes or helps us do life better.
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