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Originally Posted by innocentjoy
I don't know if you can relate to those. Just thought I'd let you know that I can understand the weirdness of not being you, at the same time as still being in charge. It's nice that R has slower breathing, to help you stay calm through those issues. And I know what you mean about if you saw yourself in a mirror you wouldn't recognize you. At least, I think I do  I often feel like if I see myself when I'm either switched or half-in/half-out I look completely alien. |
I can relate to those, absolutely! Thanks for sharing!
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Originally Posted by innocentjoy
As a question of interest (feel free to ignore if you are uncomfortable): do you ever have alters take over and get so that you are the one 'peeking out'? I don't lose time when I switch, and for the most part I'm still 'there', but sometimes there have been situations where I will switch, and while I'm watching and listening, I dont' have my own thoughts, emotions or control over actions when they're out. It's the weirdest feeling. But because I don't lost time I can remember what happens when I switch back, I just know it wasn't 'me' doing all that, but a different part of me.
(sorry if that part was way off topic).
xo
IJ
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I haven't been the one 'peeking out', having another alter in control, but there has been times where I've been in control but with another alter at the same time, if that makes sense? Like, knowing that the thoughts and feelings aren't my own, and doing things I wouldn't do if it was just me in charge... so I've been very affected by other alters being fronting too, but it has never been that I've lost control completely (as far as I know).
Even though I haven't been having another alter in charge completely I can really relate to what you're describing, about 'the weirdest feeling'.